refuse to take a chance?

Saturday February 23, 2008 - 12:17pm
I refused to take job at the end.
(If have chances, I really want to say thanks from my heart to "you" - a very special person in my life - who helps me whenever I need, who share her experiences & love for my own better life in future. I appreciate her for everything she does for me! - just a secret between us!)
Well, I had nearly one and half day free from thinking of the moving to Sales until yesterday. After lunch, Nels called me to the meeting room for about 2 hours talking. He talked a lot, and I was calm enough taking precautions hearing what he tried to explain. In summary, he wanted to be patient listening to my problems that led to the decision. And then he solved each of them by some popular ways I somehow read in books like: Inspire indulgence, feeling; look through my ambition to stimulate; create stories to show sympathy/understanding and same points/ same hoppies and same target; use truth, philosophy to attract; use time and himself as a boss to talk with just an exe and then I would feel please, proud like receive a favour from him ...He played as a fortune teller and use psychological methods to rock my heart, I think. and he's so good at this field, no doubt.
In fact, those worked out on me. I left the room as a patient already took medicines from doctor, but wonder if they are tonic or poisonous (just kidding) and few worry.
As he said: "He saw my skills, he wants to develop me since he knows I am willing to learn everything and have good attitude to be trained so far. (Nels: I share with you, I want to be (_...) .. I must develop people after me, they grow up then I grow up.) -> So it's for his interests only then he tries to be a good friend with us - I think. And the question is: If I moved, it would be good for him or for me? I would be trained, of course, but what if he gains his purpose being a ... soon this year, so where I will be that time, since I love Marketing and if I moved, at least for a reason to find down and study from this person.)
Although all he said seems helpful for me first, and they are so truth, can I believe that he sincerely wants good things for me. For ex: Position, CV is nothing at all. Most important is you prepared yourself all times, day after day for the chance, and by that you will master a lot. If you have abilities, no worry you can not get down. Companies are not blind to see u/ Real knowledges, experiences, abilities beat CV as I will know all things the employer could mention inthe interview in future. And that I should at my age consider between position, salary, and ability; let's begin study hard with jobs as subordinate level, go round to supplement knowledges in as many department as possible, and most important, I have to prepare myself everyday, then when I get promoted to manager, I will master things well, and no one can beat me ...
Although all he said and done for me, the way he convinced me, I know all since I graduated with BBA. I can't hide that I am persuaded. He attracts me by his knowledges and expeiences from a person that began learning many things carefully from the past, an ideal image of a patient exe with enthusiasm and heart all saved for working, learning, … may don't care about material things, friends, playing and enjoying but use all the time to study, to work hard, to be helpful, to go for big dream far in future, ... A person that step by step convinces people by his/her strong ability and make them respect him/ her effort. He inspired me with new spirit of working and dedication. And the humble, that he mentioned made us closer together since in Holy bible God teaches protestant to be humble ...
Everyone warns me right after the meeting with him. I know the reason why he has to do this. Sure, because he's a director, so that's what he has to do, to manage human for his smooth business ...
... many ideas to oppose, they try to prevent me from joining ...
Nels is good, sometime he is contracted with what he said much.. but I must admit that he is professional and may be, he devoted all his life for his dream, tried with all the effort, and now he deserves to receive good results, good promotion, and possesses a broaden mind with talents, competences that anyone could envy. (Perhaps, those things themselves that make him a bit different from another one, make everyone keep away from him, ... the jealousy, ... or whatever that yet we understand about him...) I wonder and really want to take a chance to find down ...
I know it's kinda funny for an exe to think so much before an offer. But I think I took 2 years wasting not to go straight to Marketing, and now I can not permit me to go round again. I must join now, as a Marketing admin or, exe, or assistant right now to hoard news, experiences, and consolidate what I have learnt in books and schools ... do you think so?
Thinking and thinking, I want to give him a chance, give me a chance to understand about that person, different from the way people thought. But I can't. After all, I scared of him much than I want to cooperate. What else, ... it is my real life, responsibility to my family, and ... my dreams in an exciting world of Marketing that remind me of the right decision ...
Many choices ahead and I should believe in those who gave me advises because they love/ take interested in me indeed. Do you agree with me? I will answer him on Monday again ...
One thing I know, that in my every decision, God will always be with me!